I failed…and here’s why I don’t feel bad

I tried to write a novel for NaNoWriMo this year, and I failed…not miserably – I was less than 10,000 words from the final goal of 50,000, but I didn’t make it.

It’s ok, though.

I don’t hate myself. I don’t feel like a loser. I wrote. I made more progress on a book than I did in years, all while balancing a huge deadline at work and getting ready for the holidays.

Here’s the thing. I could have done it. I really could have. But I would have probably abandoned other responsibilities and been miserable.

I love writing. I hate forcing myself to write. Sometimes I have to, just to make progress, but I don’t want to hate writing. I never want that to happen. So I’m going to finish this novel…at my pace.

It will get done. It probably won’t be great. In fact, I’ll probably move right onto the next one and put this one aside, to be forgotten about, or edited a few months from now.

But I will continue to write, and I’ll enjoy every moment of it. Because that’s exactly how it should be.


11 thoughts on “I failed…and here’s why I don’t feel bad

  1. It shows how determined that you are. As an author, I’ve never entered the contest because I’ve always written at a different pace. It’s my understanding that the purpose of NaNoWriMo is to get writers writing, and to give them that can do attitude.

  2. Did you write? Did you like what you wrote? Good. Shut up about failing. Also I would still like to see what you wrote. If it’s anything like the other stories of yours I’ve read, I’m pretty sure I will like it.

    • Yes! Good for you. I think the “winning feeling” is most important. And as long as you keep writing even thought it’s not November anymore, you’ll be fine!

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  4. Your attitude about finishing is remarkably similar to my attitude about not doing it this year. (I’d done it every year since 2007, and only decided at the last minute to focus more on my blogging and editing. That was far more important to me, and I think it was productive, as well.) Keep plugging away at your draft, though.

    • Oh, I will.
      And I think blogging is great writing practice. And editing? Well, that’s always a challenge. I love editing other people’s stuff, but not my own!

  5. Yay you for giving it a shot! I actually did complete the 50,000-word goal, but my story is by no means ready for anyone to read. NaNoWriMo gives us all a push to start something we might not otherwise start. I’m proud of all of us, whether the challenge turns us into “real” novelists or not.

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